One layer of me- Depression.
If you are not aware, when i was 16 i was clinically diagnosed with Depression. Depression can have many different meanings depending on your outlook on life. To me, as someone who has gone through it, i am not saying i am an expert but this is how i went through it. There is nothing to joke about when someone has depression. Once you develop the illness yourself, you start to realise why certain people feel the way they do. Why they act funny, or why you always imagine them to be the person you never wish to interact with. I suffered from the illness for almost 2 years. It is a touchy topic for me, as i will now explain why. Before my 17th birthday, so basically one mont before my birthday, my boyfriend\best friend decided to commit suicide. He did this by inhaling various house hold supplies, medications and drug suppliments as the doctors assume. Seeing someone on life support before my eyes has scared me for life. I really want people to know, suicide is not an option. I have tried it myself, and thankfully made myself stop. Although life can seem like it is not going to fix itself, it is up to you to make a change. Things are not going to fall into place until you try, which is how depression comes into place. Depression makes you feel worthless, like you are capable of nothing. Thankfully, i had good friends that guided me out of it. I went to various councellors, i even went to re-hab centres. I am still a little hesitant of this illness, as my symptoms come and go. One thing to know is, the causes of depression, and that depression means you are sad for more then 2 months non stop. No laughing, so smiling just pure worthless thoughts. I hope i took you guys into one part of my past life, and if you ever need to ask me something about depression please let me know. I reccomend Beyond Blue, Health Centre For Adolescent Health & Re-hab.
